ABOUT

THE INDIGO | FRAUKE KNÜPPELHOLZ

You see, it took me quite a while to feel comfortable with my life and with who I am. For a very long time I felt like there was something wrong with me. As a kid I loved to play and be alone. Some people I really felt uncomfortable with even when they were friendly. Quite often I was told to behave in a different way.

My so called sheltered childhood changed totally with the illness of my father. I was ten when he went into Hospital for the first time. My Mom stayed there everyday for months. So I was forced to stay with other families, friends of my mother or neighbours. The situation got worse when they had to travel for specialists to see him. Nobody explained anything to me. I was treated like a stupid child. This was even worse because as a super sensitive person I could feel that they kept secrets.

While I grew older I was allowed to stay at home alone. But I never felt comfortable with it again. Because when I was alone fearful thoughts crawled from their hidden places.

When I was 19 years old my Dad died and it was kind of obvious to become a nurse, because I have been around sickness all my life. The whole family was proud including me. But I was not happy and did not understand why. To make a very long story short I tried to live a happy life. Changing my circumstances very often. New jobs, new partners,…, and ended up with two lovely kids, alone with a job I needed for living and with a burn out.

I’m not sharing this for sympathy. There is a different reason, which I‘ll get to in a moment. It wasn’t until my early fourties I came across a book about Indigo Children because of my very different children. „The Care and Feeding of Indigo Children“ by Doreen Virtue. It literally blew my mind. This was the answer to all of the many questions I had. All three of us are Indigos. A friend of mine took some aura photos and which made it more obvious- all three of us in bright blue.

It was quite a relief because I was not wrong anymore. From the first moment I was proud to be an Indigo and still I am. But having a label for it didn’t change my life. How could I live with all these characterics (determined, creative and artistic inclinations, easily bored especially by daily routine and small talk intuative and supernatural abilities, tendency to fragility or introversion, deep longing to save the world, looking for true, longlasting and intimate friendships, close ties to plants and animals…) especially in this combination in a world like this, mostly smiling at my abilities and judging me for being strange? What makes it worse is that as an Indigo the thought of daily routine or even small talk makes me cringe.

I was overwhelmed and didn’t know how to handle all of this and make a good use out of it for my living? Tons of new questions popped up.

It took me quite a few years to grow into my Indigo personality. What I really learned is this:

When you can’t change the world, change your perception.

That’s why I named my blog FRAUKESWORLD. It is the world through my eyes, a creative, super sensitive introvert.

I didn’t want to accept the fact that being super sensitive or introvert is a bad thing, or being creative is only useful for hobbies. Many people like myself were only misunderstood and classed as the bitches, the snobs, the rude, the weirds and the loners, and what is even worse diagnosed as ADS or ADHS and treated with Ritalin.

I started on a book search about Indigo Children. Doreens Virtues „The Care and the Feeding of Indigo Children“ and Lee Carrolls „The Indigo Children“ helped me to understand me and my children much better and also accept my self in a world where extroversion reigns supreme.

I love a quote of Hannah Martin „These inspirational quiet ones often remain unheard of. But that doesn’t mean they don’t have power within themselves to do great things and impact the people and the world.

There is a place for all of us we just need to be aware of what allows us to be(come) the best we can be day by day.

The trick is to honor and appreciate yourself and your styles instead of trying to fulfill prevailing norms. Don’t wait for others understand you.

It is more important for you to appreciate yourself than for others to appreciate you.

If you experienced similar things and relate to this chances are high you are an Indigo too. If that’s the case definitly check out the books of Doreen Virtue and Lee Carroll. I guarantee they will blow your mind! You can see them on Amazon right here.

FRAUKESWORLD WAS BORN

In 2013 after she finished school my daughter went to Australia as an Au-Pair. I always loved to travel but it was a long time ago when I left Europe. When I sat in the plane towards Sydney tears of happiness ran down my cheeks. I felt free.

My daughter and I travelled the East Coast of Down Under, experienced various adventures and I was able to fulfill a big dream of mine – snorkeling at the Great Barrier Reef. At the Whitsundays we decided to take the next step to get closer to the wonderful underwater world. We became Open Water Divers.

This trip changed my life in a way I never thought it was possible.

Since then I volunteered in Namibia, watched whales on the Azores, made my rescue diver licence…

I found true happiness in travelling and trying new things which has led to tremendous personal growth and confidence in myself.

This is the reason why I began Fraukes World.

I found true happiness through pursuing what I love to do.Travelling and being creative took me out of my comfort zone and gave me lessons I otherwise would never have had.

I am an Indigo. But I’m not the one I used to be.

I feel empowered now. Its a gift given to me and I feel blessed and grateful for this change!

FRAUKESWORLD MISSION

It is my hopes that my blog encourages others (not only Indigos!) to find what is making them happy, feel confindent and empowered to life their life to the fullest.

The world needs more happy people, more smiles and more love.

Start loving yourself and allow yourself to be your fabulous self.